“Why Am I Still Not Changing?”
Sep 22, 2026
What a surprising bloom helped me recognize after ten years of inner work.
In Fractal Psychology, the world around us reflects accumulated thought patterns in our unconscious mind.
For years, I understood this intellectually. Recently, I have begun to feel it.
When I see someone living with greater abundance, success, or happiness, envy is beginning to give way to recognition: That is part of me, too. I am seeing my own future coming into view.
When someone says something hurtful, I am learning to ask: Where have I done something similar?
Looking honestly, I recognize my own past words and behavior—and sometimes patterns I still carry. Feeling their impact strengthens my resolve to change them.
Someone I perceived as an enemy becomes a messenger, revealing something within me that I can now change.
The people I envy. The people I resist. They are all projections of elements within me.
When this fully settled in, I saw that my outer world is created from fragments of my deep consciousness. Everything I see is part of me. My anxiety and frustration dissolved into clarity.
Then, this morning, I noticed an enormous white flower, about seven inches in diameter, blooming on the cactus on our ocean-facing patio. For more that a decade, I had barely noticed this plant. Yet there it was, blooming so beautifully. (This flower opens for just one night before fading the following day.)
I thought about how often I have wondered, Why am I still not changing? Despite years of steady practice, I have struggled to recognize my progress—even as my husband tells me I am a different person from four or five years ago.
Looking at that flower, I felt that something within me was beginning to bloom, too.
If the outer world reflects what is within, changing our inner patterns changes what appears in our lives.
Today, that connection felt real—and clarified my purpose in offering my upcoming master course, beginning November 14:
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Ten years after beginning my study of Fractal Psychology, I am quietly celebrating—with a clearer sense of purpose and an extraordinary white flower.
Thank you for reading,
Saemi
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